Friday, January 30, 2015

Im back....

Its been almost three years since my last post, in fact, I totally forgot about my beloved blog. Hindi ko nga alam bakit ba ko napadpad ulet dito. Haha. I just feel like writing again.... 

3 years... 
Andameng nangyari...
New work...
New friends...
And my true love . . .  


I just cant stop smiling =) 


*photo not mine

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Religion or Love


*photo not mine

La La La L.O.V.E.

Kapag inlab ang isang tao, lahat colorful. Palaging blooming, laging good mood, kahit na gabundok ang problema asahang mong hanggang tenga pa din ang ngiti nyan kasi alam nyang may isang taong mahal na mahal sya. Iba talaga ang nadudulot ng LOVE sa isang tao. Nagiging possible ang imposible, nagiging rational ang irrational, lahat may logic, lahat nagkakadahilan.


Ganyan ako noon sa unang boyfriend ko way back 2005. I was 19 years old that time Ang saya saya ko lage. Inspired akong mag-aral, ang rainy days nagiging sunny. Syempre gusto kong ishare ang kasiyahan ko sa family ko. Noong pinakilala ko sya sa bahay, ang unang tanong ng relihiyosang mommy ko “Katoliko ka ba iho?” Patay na! Hindi kame magkapareho ng relihiyon.


 Alam kong naiimagine mo na ang susunod na nangyari. Hindi ok sa mommy ko ang boyfriend ko noon. Ang tito ko kasi (kapatid ng mommy ko) ay nagpalit ng religion dahil sa tita kong hindi katoliko. Medyo rocky ang naging marriage nila pero naayos pa din naman nila at some point. Sila naman ni daddy ay separated for ten years na nagkabalikan lang nung high school ako. Ayaw daw ng mommy ko na mangyari saken un.


At dahil sa magical feeling na nararamdaman ko sa lalaking yon noon, sinuway ko ang ina ko. Go pa din ako sa pakikipagrelasyon ko sa kanya. Tipong you and me against the world ang drama namen sa buhay. Pati friends ko ayaw sa kanya – medyo mayabang kasi si mokong. Pero ako, sige pa din, love ko eh, paki ko sa inyo!!! Sa isip ko, hindi lahat ng couple na hindi magkapareho ng religion ay may failed relationship, papatunayan namen na hindi kame ganon.


Pero ang magical sunny days ko, nagiging gloomy. Naalis ang boyfriend ko sa religion nila dahil saken, masama daw na makipagrelasyon sila sa hindi nila kapareho. Guilting guilty ako. At dahil sa nagiging rational nga ang irrational, walang second thoughts kong sinabe na magpapaconvert na ko for him – nang hindi nalalaman ng parents ko at ng kahit na sino sa side ko. I did this because of my undying and unreasonable love for him.


Sa mga lectures ko about their religion – especially about their faith, naguguluhan ako. Bilang isang batang lumaki sa sagrado katolikong pamilya – naging lector, choir at youth member na active sa simbahan. Alam kong may mali. Parang hindi tama, iba sa kinalakihang kong paniniwala, iba sa relihiyong mahal ko. Pero ginawa ko pa rin dahil sa pagmamahal ko sa lalaking yon, sa isip ko, worth it lahat ng ito, wala lang to, kasi makakasama ko naman sya eh. May pinapatunayan kame eh.


I was almost there, macoconvert na ko. Magiging lehitimong kasapi na ko ng relihiyon nila nang nakita ako ng kaibigan ng mommy ko at sinabe nya ang nangyayari saken at mga ginagawa ko. World war ang drama naming mag-ina. Pero iba talaga ang DIYOS KO – hindi nya hinayaan na talikuran ko ang relihiyon na mahal ko at pinaniniwalaan ko. Bago ang conversion ko, nalaman kong may babae ang mokong na pinaglaban ko sa kahit na kanino. Pagkatapos ng lahat ng ginawa ko, yun pa ang igaganti nya sa akin. Parang dehado naman na yata ako. Ang unfair!!! Habang nakikipagdebate ako sa mommy ko at pilit kong minamahal ang religion nya, iba ang pinagkakaabalahan nya.


Naghiwalay kame after ng isang taong pagkabulag sa kanya at sa pagmamahal kuno nya saken. Natauhan ako sa mga maling ginawa ko. Inembrace ko ulet ang friends kong inaaway ko dahil sa mga illogical actions ko. Nagsorry ako a parents ko lalo na sa mommy ko.


At higit sa lahat sobrang nahihiya ako at nagsorry kay LORD dahil sa muntik kong pagbitaw sa kanya. Narealize ko ngayon na katoliko ako, at mamamatay akong sarado katoliko. Mahal ko ang relihiyon ko, mahal ko ang paniniwala ko. Mahal ko si LORD.


Hindi ako against sa ibang religion. Ginagalang ko ang faith nila. Ginagalang ko sila.


Ngayon pag naiisip ko ang chapter ng buhay ko nay un, natatawa na lang ako. Akalain mong nagawa ko yun. Akalain mong muntik na kong bumitaw. Pero hinding hindi na mangyayari ulet saken to. Natuto na ko…


Aizzie's Head



Ang dameng tumatakbo sa utak ko minsan – ang gulo – gulo, sala-salabat ang linya sa utak ko. Feeling ko sasabog ako anytime. Kapag ganitong nagkakatrapik trapik na ang neurons sa utak ko, at di nila makagawa ng tama ang dapat nilang gawin, kung anu-anong thoughts ang tumatakbo sa utak ko. Sira ulo na nga talaga yata ako.
 

Pakiramdam ko mag-isa ako, wala akong kakampi. Walang handang makinig. Walang handang tumapik sa balikat ko. Walang handang yumakap saken. Walang kaibigan o kahit stranger na magaaksaya ng oras para saken. Self pity, kadramahan, pa-emo epek, depression.

 
Naalala ko noong nagduty kame sa mental institution, nag-assist kame sa pasyenteng maguundergo ng ECT (ElectroConvulsive Therapy.) Ginagawa ang procedure na to sa mga taong sobra na ang depression - yung tipong naggive up na ang mga anti-depressant drugs sa kanila. Sila ung tipong taong bumitaw na, sumuko na. Kukuryentihin nila ang utak nila, kumbaga sa alarm clock gigisingin nila ang neurons mong papetiks petiks sa loob ng utak mo, at gawin ang dapat nilang gawin para di kana madepress. Naisip ko minsan, kung pede ko bang gawin ang procedure na yun? Baka sakaling maayos ang sala-salabat na linya sa utak ko at tumakbo ng maayos.
 

Tapos after a few hours ng kadramahan ko sa buhay, at kakalma na ko, minsan naiisip ko ang simple simple lang naman talaga ang dapat kong gawin pag parang sasabog na ang utak ko, bakit hindi ko subukang pumikit at huminga ng malalim. Bakit hindi ko subukang alisin ang negative thoughts at isiping hindi ako nag-iisa. Dahil alam kong hinding hindi ako iiwan ni LORD at ng daddy kong nasa langit na. alam kong pag feeling kong magisa ako nakayakap sila sa akin at hindi nila ako iiwan. Nakikinig sila hindi lang sa sinasabe ng utak ko pati na din sa sinasabe ng isip at puso ko.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY


NOTE: gusto ko lang pong ishare ang nakakatuwang article na 'to. Napasmile nya kasi ako



Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal

In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There’s the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you’re with…and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it’s that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose. 

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who you’re with, it just doesn’t work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you’re not ready and it shows. It’s not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it’s just that it’s not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It’ll work because it’s the right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you’re finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there’s no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you’re single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn’t matter.

All you know is that you’ve changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You’ll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?". That’s what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you’ll have in your life. 

If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, nomatter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you’re mature enough to realize that you’re already with the one you’re with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so often, but it’s alright. It’s never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which case it’s the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it’s different. What do you do if it’s not yet too late? Simple…find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you’ll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn’t matter if you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference.

If the timing is finally right, it’ll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I’m thinking, it would be a great feeling in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you’re the one that almost got away." =)

BORED






Dalawang buwan na kong nasa pinas, dalwang buwan na kong tambay - at isa lang ang masasabe ko, grabe - BORED NA BORED NA KO!!!!!

Dati, pagkagraduate ko ng college, at habang nag-aantay ng results ng board exam. Certified tambay din naman ako, palaging nasa bahay at talagang walang halos ginagawa pero hindi ako nabagot ng ganito. Lahat na ginawa ko, maglinis ng bahay, magluto, matulog, matulog, kumain, kumain, manood ng tv ng dvd, matulog ulet, kumain ulet at matulog ulet.

Sawa na akong magstalk sa facebook at twitter. Dame ko na ding napanood na movies at korean series. pati books dame ko ng natapos. kung dati kuntento na ko magcamera whore, ngayon tamad na tamad na ko, ni magupload nga sa facebook kinatatamadan ko na samantalang date updated ako lagi.

O kaya lang ako bagot na bagot ay dahil sa wala akong LOVE LIFE! Ay hindi nasusukat dun ang pagkabagot ko sa buhay, hindi ko kailangan ng boyfriend para may taga-aliw ako sa buhay, eh di sana nagrent nalang ako ng clown!!! haha

Kailangan ko ng bagong hobby, bagong past time.

I NEED SOMETHING NEW IN MY LIFE!!!!


Monday, May 28, 2012

Human Heart Nature

Minsang bored na bored ako at wala na akong bagong website na mapuntahan. Dumalaw ako sa favorite kong forum site... please welcome GIRLTALK!!! (Click mu na matutuwa ka jan) Anyway punta ko sa Lets Primp and Pretty Section, sa Inexpensive yet Effective products. Jan kasi ako naghahanap ng bagong products na pede kong ity na sinasabe nilang maganda daw!

Trending sa mga kaGirl Talk ang Human Heart Nature Sunflower Beauty Oil. Naintriga ko, kaya mega search naman ang lola mo sa site nila. Try to visit their site. humanheartnature.com =)

Sabe sa description nila about the sunflower beauty oil:


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